CHAPTER XXXV.
The Pilgrim's Return. — Rumors of a New Investigation.
朝圣者再次回来 —— 谣传新的调查
To leave Diilmen was very painful to the Pilgrim, but Sister Emmerich's kind words reconciled him. " We shall meet again,” she said. "You will again taste many consolations and write many things here at my bedside. I would have died long ago, if I had not a special mission to fulfil through you." Father Limberg also had given him the assurance of a kindly reception on his return which, however, was not to be at too early a date and only to be countenanced on the condition that he would not impose his presence on the invalid in such a way as to exclude all others. The good Father, nevertheless, shared the sentiments of the old Abbe and Dr. Wesener.
离开杜尔门对朝圣者来说是非常痛苦的，但是艾曼丽修女亲切的话语抚慰了他的心。「我们会再见面的，」艾曼丽说，「你将再次在我的床边品尝到很多的安慰，写下许多东西。如果不是有特殊的使命要通过你来完成，我早就死了。」林堡神父也向他保证，他回来时会受到盛情款待，但日期不宜太早，而且条件是不能因为他的回来，而强求艾曼丽修女将访客和亲朋关在门外。兰伯特神父和韦塞纳医生都和这位善良的神父有着同样的看法。
He would have been well satisfied never to have seen Mr. Brentano again, for all knew that, in spite of his protestations, a repetition of the last three months' scenes might lawfully be expected. Such considerations, however, weighed little against the invalid's own conviction that the Pilgrim was destined to the perfect accomplishment of her mission. He, on his side, suspected not how painful it was to her to authorize his return, or what she suffered on his account. On Dec. 21, 1818, he had written the following : —
要是能永远不再见到布伦塔诺先生，林堡神父会很满意，因为所有人都知道，尽管布伦塔诺先生一再表示，但过去三个月的情景还是会重演的，然而，这些顾虑并没有影响艾曼丽修女的信念，即朝圣者注定会完美地完成使命。在布伦塔诺这边，他不知道批准他回来对艾曼丽来说有多痛苦，也不知道艾曼丽因为他而受了多少苦。1818 年 12 月 21 日，布伦塔诺写道：
" She was very much exhausted this morning from cutting out and making up clothes for poor children, but she bore my questioning with inexpressible patience. She was weak and feverish, and answered with an effort. She asked me afterward if she had not repeated the same thing several times. I did not, at first, remark her great exhaustion. I begged pardon whenever I put a question, to which she invariably replied, l It is nothing ! — ' " The Pilgrim, unaccustomed to self-control, could pass from the most joyous mood to one of profound melancholy at the slightest contradiction of his wishes or plans. At such moments the invalid would try to calm him with words like the following : —
「今天上午，因为给穷孩子剪裁和缝制衣服，她已经非常疲惫，但她还是以难以形容的耐心接受我的提问。她身体虚弱，发着高烧，回答得很吃力。事后她问我，她是不是重复了好几遍同样的话。起初，我并没有注意到她非常疲惫。每当我提出问题时，都请她原谅，她总是回答：『没什么！ ——』」朝圣者不习惯于自我控制，只要与他的愿望或计划稍有违背，他就会从最愉快的情绪转为极度的忧郁。 在这种时候，病人会设法用这样的话安慰他:—
“Never yet have I confided so much to any one as to you. I have never spoken so freely to any one before, but I have been ordered to do so." Persuaded that no one understood her as well as he did himself, he was too much inclined to attribute her confidence to his own personal influence, and on that account he felt justified in wishing to remove from her vicinity all that could annoy her. Scarcely had he returned to Berlin than he began to take measures for re-establishing himself by the invalid as soon as possible, and to this effect he wrote to Diilmen. The impression produced upon the Abbe Lambert by the news would be difficult to describe. He implored Sister Emmerich with tears to forbid the return of so importunate a guest.
「我从来没有像对你这样向任何人倾诉过如此多的事。我以前从来没有对任何人这么坦率地说过话，但我是奉命这样做了。」布伦塔诺确信没有人像他自己那样了解艾曼丽，他太过于倾向于将艾曼丽的信任归功于他自己的个人影响，并且正因如此，他觉得希望将所有可能使艾曼丽烦恼的事物从艾曼丽的身边移走是正当的。他刚回到柏林，就开始采取措施，尽快恢复他自己在病人身边的工作，为此他写信去杜尔门。他将返回的消息对兰伯特神父产生的影响令人难以形容。兰伯特神父流着泪恳求艾曼丽修女禁止这位如此纠缠不休的客人回来。
She could hardly calm the old priest, usually so gentle and indulgent, but now more persistent in his request as he was supported by Dr. Wesener. Both thought her life drawing toward its close, and wished not to be deprived of the consolation they experienced in their intercourse with her by an intruder, for such they deemed the Pilgrim. His intellectual superiority crushed them, they felt that he thought them incapable of appreciating her high privileges.
艾曼丽几乎无法让这位老神父平静下来，老神父通常是那么温和与宽容，但现在由于得到了韦塞纳医生的支持，他对他自己提出的要求更加坚持了。两人都认为艾曼丽的生命即将结束，不希望被一个不速之客剥夺他们与她交往时所体验到的安慰，因为他们认为这个不速之客是朝圣者。他在知识上的优越感压垮了他们，布伦塔诺认为他们无法欣赏艾曼丽的崇高的特恩。
Various circumstances combined to aggravate the Abbe's uneasiness : the Pilgrim's stay at Diilmen had already attracted attention throughout Miinster, and he had also aroused suspicion by his inconsiderate freedom of speech ; in Diilmen itself it was not understood how he, a perfect stranger, could gain so easy and continual access to the invalid ; the most contradictory surmises were circulated on the subject, and it was only his charity to the poor, his piety, and his simplicity of life that disarmed the malevolent. The Abbe also dreaded a new investigation, and not without reason ; for, by means of the Pilgrim, the report was spread in Minister that since Christmas, 1818, a change had taken place in the bleeding of her wounds. On Dec. 6th, Sister Emmerich said whilst in ecstasy : “My guide hast said to me : ‘If thy wounds are withdrawn from thee, thou shalt suffer greater pains. Tell this to thy confessor, and do what he says.' I replied : ' Ah ! I would rather have the sufferings than the wounds ! I am so afraid, I am so ashamed !’ "
种种情况加在一起，加剧了兰伯特神父的不安：朝圣者在杜尔门的逗留已经引起了整个明斯特的关注，他不加考虑的言论自由也引起了人们的猜疑；在杜尔门，人们不理解，他这个完全陌生的人，如何能够如此轻易和不断地接近病人；在这个话题上，人们流传着各种自相矛盾的猜测，只有他对穷人的仁慈、他的虔诚和他的简朴生活，使那些心怀不轨的人解除了恶意的猜测。兰伯特神父也害怕进行新的调查，这不是没有理由的。因为，通过朝圣者，报告在明斯特流传，自 1818 年圣诞节以来，她的伤口流血情况发生了变化。12 月 6 日，艾曼丽修女在神魂超拔中说：「我的护守天神对我说：『如果将你的圣伤从你身上收回，你会遭受更大的痛苦。告诉你的神师，并按照他说的去做。』我回答说：『啊！我宁愿受苦也不愿要圣伤！我好害怕，好惭愧！』」
On the 23d, Dr. Wesener records the following : —
“ I have visited her every day since the end of October, but I find no change, nothing new in her physical condition. In the early part of November, we moved her into the little room next the one she was then occupying. This caused some confusion and bustle and gave us a fresh proof of her weakness and nervousness. She was quite overcome, began to vomit, and lay in this state for two weeks. Her hands and feet bled as usual on Fridays, her head all the time." From Friday, Dec. 25th, he made the following entries: —
在 12月23日，韦塞纳医生记录了以下内容：「从10月底开始，我每天都去探望艾曼丽，但我发现她没有任何变化，她的身体状况也没有任何新的改变。 11 月初，我们把她搬到了她当时住的房间隔壁的小房间里。这引起了一些混乱和喧闹，并为我们提供了她病弱和紧张的新证据。她很受打击，开始呕吐，在这种状态下躺了两周。瞻礼六（周五），她的手脚像往常一样流血，她的头一直流血。」从 12 月 25 日瞻礼六开始，韦塞纳医生做了以下记录：
" To-day, Christmas, her head, the cross on her breast, and the wounds in her side have bled more freely than for along time ; but the skin around the wounds of her hands and feet is white and dry, the crusts of a clear brown." Dec. 28th — The crusts fell from her hands and feet. There appeared on the upper part of both a long transparent mark ; and on the opposite surface is a slight induration also of an oblong form. The pain has increased instead of diminishing.
"Friday, Jan. 1st — The wounds of her head and side bled as usual, but not those of her hands and feet.
「今天，圣诞瞻礼，她的头、胸前的十字架印痕，和她肋旁的伤口都比以往任何时候流血更多；但她手脚伤口周围的皮肤却又白又干，结痂透明，颜色是棕色的。」
12月28日——她的手和脚上都掉了痂，手背脚背上都出现了一个长长的透明印记，手心脚心有一个长圆形的轻微硬结，疼痛不减反增。
1 月 1 日，瞻礼六（周五）——她头部和肋旁的伤口像往常一样流血，但手脚的伤口没有流血。
"Good-Friday, April 9th — The invalid has lain for a week in a state of inexpressible suffering. To the tortures of her stigmata are added bronchial catarrh and cough, pains in the throat and breast. The wounds of her hands and feet reopened to-day. I found them bleeding this morning at ten o'clock. Sister Emmerich showed them to me sadly and begged me to say nothing about it The following Friday her hands and feet remained as they have been since Christmas, the wounds closed. "
「4月9日，星期五耶稣受难日——病人在难以形容的痛苦中躺了一周。除了五伤的折磨之外，她还受到了支气管炎和咳嗽、喉咙和胸部疼痛的折磨。今天，她手脚的伤口又裂开了，我今早10点发现伤口在流血。艾曼丽修女悲伤地把伤口给我看，并求我不要说出这件事。下个瞻礼六（周五），她手脚的伤口愈合了，从圣诞节起就一直是这样。」
As soon as the report was spread in Miinster that her hands and feet had ceased to bleed, the Prussian authorities thought it an opportune moment for executing a project of long standing : namely, that of taking the stigmatisee of Dulmen under their own immediate jurisdiction.
当有关她的手脚不再流血的报道在明斯特传开后，普鲁士当局认为这是执行一项长期计划的好时机：亦即将杜尔门的印五伤者置于他们自己的直接管辖之下。
Dr. Wesener says : "Feb. 18th — Sister Emmerich sent for me to-day to advise her on the introduction of two persons : Dr. Rave, of Ramsdorf, and Vicar Roseri, who had arrived with an order from the Chief President von Vinke to inquire into her present state. I advised her to admit them. They called on me that afternoon to inquire about the effusions of blood and many other particulars. I saw that Dr. Rave suspects fraud and that he is resolved to discover it. I begged him to wait until next day when he might witness the bleeding of her wounds for himself.
韦塞纳医生说：「2 月 18 日——艾曼丽修女今天捎信给我，希望我就介绍前来的两个人向她提出建议：拉姆斯多夫的拉夫医生和罗塞里神父，他们是带着冯．文克总主教的命令来到这里，询问艾曼丽目前的状况。我建议艾曼丽容许他们来看访。当天下午他们就来找我，询问伤口流血的情况和许多其他细节。我看出拉夫医生怀疑这是欺诈，并决心查明真相。我恳求他等到第二天，亲眼目睹她伤口流血的过程。
" Friday, Feb. 19th — The two visitors wearied the invalid all the morning with questions on matters well-known to the public. Instead of waiting until her wounds bled, they left about noon. Toward three o'clock, the cross and her head bled, but not the wound of her side. I sent her head-dress stained with blood to Dean Overberg by Father Limberg, after having shown it to the burgomaster Mr. Moellmann. Roseri belongs to the so-called Illuminati (1) but he went away with changed sentiments. It seems as if God touched his heart (2). Rave, the physician, is a worlding, another Bodde ; one could read in his eyes his suspicion of imposture.
「2 月 19 日，瞻礼六（周五）——整个上午这两个来访者都在询问公众熟知的问题，把病人弄得疲惫不堪。他们没有等到她的伤口流血，而是在中午时分离开了。快三点了，十字架印痕和她的头流血了，但她肋旁的伤口没有流血。我把她那沾满鲜血的头饰给市长莫尔曼先生看了之后，通过林堡神父送到了奥弗伯格总铎那里。但罗塞里神父属于所谓的光明会（1），他带着复杂的情绪离开了，似乎天主触动了他的心灵（2）。拉夫医生是个世俗人，是另一个“布迪”；人们从他的眼中就可以看出他怀疑这是骗局。
He found fault with me for not having kept the crusts from her hands and feet. 'When one has the grain.’ said I ,’he throws away the husk. Now that I understand the most striking features of the case, unimportant details do not interest me' — but Rave could not comprehend my meaning, A few days before this visit the Abbe Lambert had been called upon to present his papers of nationality to the burgomaster. The order was from the Chief-President and was couched in the following terms : ' I have been apprised that there is now at Diilmen a French emigre, a priest, whose position is rather doubtful' — Fancy how such reports must affect the poor invalid and the old Abbe ! Idle tales and calumnies are rife on all sides; but Sister Emmerich confides in God, and we, her friends, rejoice to suffer for Christ and the truth !"
拉夫医生对我吹毛求疵说我没有把痂皮从她的手脚上取走。『捡了芝麻，丢了西瓜。』我说，『现在我明白了这个案子最引人注目的特点，不重要的细节我就不感兴趣了。』但拉夫不明白我的意思。在这次访问前几天，兰伯特神父被要求向市政厅长出示他的国籍文件。该命令是总主教下达的，内容如下：『我被告知，现在杜尔门有一个法国移民，一个司铎，他的职位相当可疑。』想想看，这样的报告会对这位可怜的病人和老神父产生怎样的影响！到处都是无稽之谈和诽谤，但艾曼丽修女信靠天主，而我们，她的朋友，很高兴为基督和真理而受苦！」
As Dr. Rave, besides his official statement, had circulated a (3) letter containing his own private opinion the subject very unfavorable to Sister Emmerich ; as he revived the former attacks of Bodde, and threatened to stir up fresh storms, Dr. Wesener thought it high time to come forward in defence of the innocent, by a memorial addressed to the Chief- President of Minister. But Sister Emmerich was opposed to such a step. She asked Dean Overberg's advice. He replied as follows :
由于拉夫医生除了他的官方声明外，还散发了一封(3)对艾曼丽修女非常不利的信件；由于他重提“布迪”之前的攻击，并威胁要挑起新的风暴时，韦塞纳医生认为现在是时候为无辜的人辩护了，他向明斯特首席长官递交了一份诉状，但是艾曼丽修女反对这样做。她征求了奥弗伯格总铎的建议。奥弗伯格总铎的回复如下：
(1) Letter of Dr. Wesener to the Pilgrim.
(1)韦塞纳医生写给朝圣者的信
(2) The doctor was woefully deceived In Roseri, as the sequel will show. The invalid received information in vision concerning him and his clique. “I saw Rave full of malice, calumniating me. even against his own conviction, in order to please the followers of the Eagle" (the Prussian government.) " I thought Roseri changed, but he is essentially false and he acts at random. I said to myself : How can such a priest help souls ?— and I received the answer : ‘He helps as few as the Good Book does among the separated. He has no benediction in himself, but he can distribute the Church's goods without possessing them himself.'- I saw the government of the Eagle badly administered In this part of the country. The-Chief-President has a noble heart, he means well, but he has bad counsellors. If he came to see me himself, I doubt not that I would be able to gain his good judgment to the truth."-
(2) 拉夫医生被罗塞里神父可悲地欺骗了，正如结果所展示的那样。病人在神视中收到了关于罗塞里神父和他所在的光明会的信息。「我看到拉夫医生满怀恶意，甚至违背自已的信念诽谤我。为了取悦“鹰派”的追随者（指普鲁士政府）。」 「我以为罗塞里变了，但他本质上是虚伪的，而且行为随意。我对自已说: 这样一位司铎怎么能帮助灵魂呢？我得到的答复是：『他对失散者的帮助就像《好书》对失散者的帮助一样少。在他内没有祝福。但他可以分配教会的宝藏，自己并未拥有它们。』我看到在这片土地上鹰政府管理得很糟糕。最高行政长官有一颗高尚的心，他的本意是好的，但他的顾问却很糟糕。如果他亲自来见我，我相信我一定能让他对事实真相做出正确的判断。」
注:《好书》整本书的编排结构与圣经相似。 它分为十四卷（创世记、智慧、比喻、协和、哀歌、安慰、圣人、诗歌、历史、箴言、立法者、使徒行传、书信和善）。 每本书分为短章，每章又分为编号的节，以便章和节可以数字引用。——维基百科
(3) The Landrath Beenninghausen, of whom we shall hereafter speak more at length, acknowledged that Dr, Rave, besides his protocol, had privately written to Dr. Borges, at Minmster, expressing his own views with a little more freedom"
(3) 兰德拉斯．本宁豪森（我们将在下文中更详细地谈到他），他承认，除他的官方记录外，拉夫医生还私下写信给明斯特的博尔赫斯医生，更自由地表达了他自己的观点.。
" How much I have wished to visit my dear friends at Diilmen, among whom you hold not the last place ! But such is not the will of God. Sickness and other obstacles prevent. I would like to lay before you my reasons against writing to the Chief-President, but not now, not till I can do so by word of mouth. Neither do I advise you to have the declaration forwarded to me inserted in the journals. Every response is specie payment. We must not buy lead, or what is even of less value, with pure gold. It is written : ‘Cast not holy things to the dogs, nor pearls to swine. ‘ I desire to compare no man to dogs or swine. But there must be some deserving of such comparison, else the Saviour, the infinitely wise Son of God, would never have given us this warning .... Nothing is so consoling and delightful as to suffer something with Christ ! But why attach so much importance to Bodde's pamphlet? why see in it so formidable an attack ? I have heard many persons declare that it betrays its spirit too openly to find supporters, it cannot do the least harm."
「我多么想去拜访我在杜尔门的亲爱的朋友们，你在他们中间并不是最后一个！但这并不是天主的旨意。疾病和其它障碍阻止了我。我想向你陈述我反对写信给首席总长的理由，但不是现在，要等到我可以通过亲口讲述才行。我也不建议你将转交给我的声明刊登在期刊上。每一个回应都得付出真实的代价。我们绝不能用纯金购买铅或价值更低的东西。经上写着：『不要把圣物丢给狗，不要把珍珠丢给猪。』我不想把任何人比作狗或猪。但一定有些人配得这样比较，否则救主，无限智慧的天主之子，绝不会给我们这个警告……，没有什么比与基督一起受苦更令人安慰和愉快的了！但为什么要如此重视“布迪”的小册子？为什么要把它看作是这么可怕的攻击？我听到很多人说，这本“布迪小册子”过于公开地背叛了作者的良心，以至于找不到支持者，但“布迪小册子”对我不会造成丝毫伤害。 」
注腳：（Bodde 布迪，亦即‘B 教授’）
1.在 29, 30, 31, 33 章中曾以Prof. B, 提到
2.在 33, 35, 37, 38 章中以Bodde or Prof. Bodde提到
3.Bodde's pamphlet“布迪小册子”? 在33 章中提到：“eighteen months later, when Prof. B published his calumnies accusing her…”(十八个月后，当 B 教授发表诽谤，指责艾曼丽修女欺骗和将教会调查视为蹩脚的事情时)
When Dr. Wesener declared later on that these public attacks ought to be met and refuted for the sake of those concerned, the invalid gravely replied : “Ah ! ye good people, I thank you for the interest you take in me. But I must say that one thing in all of you, without exception, afflicts me : that is, that you treat the case with presumption and selfishness and, consequently, with bitterness. Whilst defending the truth, you wish also to defend your own opinion, your own reputation! You combat not the lie only, but also those who contradict you ; in a word, you seek yourselves and not the glory of God alone ! "
后来，当韦塞纳医生宣布，为了相关人员的利益，应该回应和驳斥这些公开的攻击时，艾曼丽严肃地回答说: 「啊! 你们这些善良的人们，我感谢你们对我的关心。但我必须说，你们所有人都卷进这案子里了，没有一个人不令我痛苦：那就是，你们对待这案子的态度自以为是、自私自利，因而也是充满怨恨的，带来苦果。你们在捍卫真理的同时，也想捍卫自己的观点、自已的名誉!你们不仅与谎言作斗争，也与那些与你们唱反调的人作斗争；总之，你们寻求的是自己，而不单单是天主的光荣! 」
The Vicar-General now thought it his duty again to visit Dulmen, the reports that had reached him being far from satisfactory. It was rumored that access to the invalid was refused by the old Abbe, and that evening reunions were held around her couch. Sister Emmerich soon gave satisfactory explanations to his inquiries, her irresistible candor and simplicity again pleading in her favor. He said to her, half in jest, half in earnest : "I have been a little displeased with you, many things around you shock me ! " — to which she replied : “That distresses me, but you know not my position, and it is not possible to explain it in words. " — Then he enumerated certain points : the Abbe's proximity, the Pilgrim's prolonged sojourn, the frequent visits she received, the room in which she was (instead of a more retired one at the back of the house), etc.
现在，副主教认为他有责任再次访问杜尔门，因为他收到的报告远不能令人满意。有传言说，老神父拒绝他去探望这位病人，而且晚上的聚会就在她的床边举行。艾曼丽修女很快就对副主教的询问作出了满意的解释，她那无可抗拒的坦率和朴实再次为自己辩护。副主教半开玩笑半认真地对艾曼丽说：「我对你有点不满意，你身边的许多事情都让我感到震惊! 」艾曼丽回答说：「这让我很难过，可是你不知道我的处境，我也无法用语言来说明。」然后副主教列举了几点：兰伯特神父离她太近，朝圣者的长期逗留，她经常受到拜访，她所住的房间不够隐私(而不是后面那间更私密的房间)，等等。
But when she begged him to point out the remedy for all this, he confessed himself unable to do so. She explained to him the Pilgrim's intentions, the command she had received in vision to make use of him to record her revelations, and begged him to decide, as her Superior, upon what course she was to follow. Whereupon the Vicar-General concluded that Brentano must not be forbidden to fulfil his task. He was, at last, satisfied, or as Sister Emmerich herself expressed it : "It passed off well. We came to the same conclusion ! He went away satisfied and remained so !"
但当她恳求副主教指出解决这一切的办法时，副主教承认自己无能为力。她向副主教解释了朝圣者的意图，以及她在异象中收到的命令，天主要利用朝圣者来记录她的启示，她恳求副主教作为她的长上，决定她将遵循的天主的旨意。因此，副主教得出结论，不得禁止布伦塔诺完成他的任务。朝圣者终于满意了，或者正如艾曼丽修女自己所表达的那样：「一切进展顺利。我们得出了相同的结论！副主教满意地走了，而且一直坚定守信！」
So stood affairs in Dulmen, when the announcement of the Pilgrim's speady return threw the good people into great agitation Father Limberg said nothing and left to the invalid the care of lulling the storm ; but as this proved no easy task, she had recourse to Dean Overberg for advice. She knew from experience that his decisions were always well received by her little circle, and it was on this account that she had so earnestly desired a visit from him during the Pilgrim's former stay ; she wished him to explain to her friends that it was not in her power to dismiss the object of their dislike, that his coming or going depended not on her choice. The Abbe and the doctor allowed themselves to be persuaded to appeal to the Dean, but at the same time, they wrote to Brentano to dissuade him from returning. Whilst these negotiations were pending. Sister Emmerich prayed that the glory of God and the salvation of souls might accrue from the whole affair.
在杜尔门的情况也是这样，当朝圣者迅速归来的消息宣布后，善良的人们陷入极大的不安，林堡神父什么也没说，把平息风波的任务交给了病人；但事实证明这并非一件容易的事，艾曼丽只好向奥弗伯格总铎寻求建议。她从经验中知道，奥弗伯格总铎的决定总是受到她的小圈子的欢迎，正因为如此，在朝圣者上次逗留期间，艾曼丽修女非常渴望奥弗伯格总铎的访问；她希望总铎向她的朋友们解释，她无权力打发走他们不喜欢的人，朝圣者的去留并不取决于她的选择。兰伯特神父和韦塞纳医生被说服向总铎求助，但同时他们又写信劝布伦塔诺不要回来了。就在这些谈判悬而未决的时候，艾曼丽修女向天主祈求，希望整个事件能带来天主的光荣和灵魂的救赎。
The Abbe's letter ran thus : "Sir, be not offended with me, if I desire not your return. I feel that I have not the strength and courage to undergo a second time what I endured during your last visit to Diilmen. For many years have Sister Emmerich and I lived in peace, and so we wish to die. It was very hard for me whilst you were here, to be forced to see and speak to her, as it were, by stealth. I cannot consent to your return. No ! No ! my dear sir, no ! What I now write I should have said to you before by word of mouth, if you had listened to me. I often wanted to speak to you on this subject, but you would never permit me."
兰伯特神父的信是这样写的：「先生，如果我不希望您回来，请不要生我的气。我觉得我没有力量和勇气再经历一次您上次访问杜尔门时我所承爱的痛苦。多年来，我和艾曼丽修女一直平静地生活着，所以我们也希望这样平静地老去。当您在这里的时候，我被迫偷偷地与她见面和交谈，这让我非常难受。我不能同意你回来 。不！不！亲爱的先生，不！我现在写的这些话，是我以前早该亲口对您说的。我经常想和您谈谈这个话题，但您从不给我机会。」
To the above written in French, the doctor added the following lines: — "My object in writing is to beg you not to return. You may smile at this, but your inflexible will cannot always be a safe guide for your actions. I have acquainted Dean Overberg with your manner of life here and your treatment of us all. Follow his advice! All Sister Emmerich's friends, both here and in Munster, are of one opinion — that your return will have most vexatious results. The fault lies in yourself. You have expressed yourself in Munster about the clergy of Diilmen, and principally of one, in terms so free and sarcastic that all declare against you, not one in your favor. No one is willing to write this to you; therefore, I do it.
在上面用法语写的信尾，韦塞纳医生补充了以下几行：「我写信的目的是请求你不要回来。你可能会对此一笑置之，但你顽固的意志不可能永远成为你行动的安全指南。我已让奥弗伯格总铎了解了你在这里的生活方式以及你对我们所有人的态度。请听从他的建议！艾曼丽修女在这里和在明斯特的所有朋友，都一致认为——你的归来会带来最令人烦恼的结果。错在你自己。你在明斯特对杜尔门的神职人员，特别是其中一位神职人员的言辞是如此肆意和讽刺，以至于所有人都反对你，没有一个人是支持你的。没有人愿意给你写这些真话；因此，我来写给你。
I feel obliged to say that the inconveniences resulting to Sister Emmerich from her relations with yon infinitely outweigh the advantages derived ; consequently, we are resolved, in the event of your return, not to allow you the free access to her that you enjoyed before. Sister Emmerich sympathizes with your sad fate and solid conversion, but she sees, too, with anxiety your distempered imagination, she dreads your ungovernable will. If you return, she is resolved to admit you to her room but one hour a day ; and besides, you are not to interfere in her household affairs. Her sister is, in truth, a miserable creature ; but Sister Emmerich is willing to bear with her, persuaded that God makes use of this sister to help her to practise virtue. The good old Abbe Lambert has suffered much from you though, of course, without your intending it. All has not gone so smoothly as you think. Dean Overberg is of our opinion. Prevail upon him to say what he thinks of your return."
我不得不说，艾曼丽修女与你的关系给她带来的不便远远超过了由此所得的好处；因此，我们决定，如果你返回，我们将不允许你像以前那样自由地接近她。艾曼丽修女对你悲惨的命运和坚定的皈依表示同情，但她也因为你失去理智的想象力而焦虑不安，她害怕你那无法控制的意志。如果你回来，她决定每天只让你在她房里待一个小时。此外，你不能干涉她的家务事。事实上，她的妹妹确实是一个乖戾的人，但艾曼丽修女愿意忍受她妹妹，她相信这是天主利用她妹妹来帮助她践行圣德。善良的老神父兰伯特已经从你身上受了不少苦，当然，这是你无意中造成的。一切都没有你想象的那么顺利。奥弗伯格总铎同意我们的观点。请让他说出他对你回来的看法。」
Dr. Wesener had written, as follows, to Dean Overberg respecting the Pilgrim :
" Our dear invalid has entreated me to write and give you some explanation of the Abbe Lambert's letter, and my own inclinations, as well as my affection for her, urge me to give you news of her present condition. Mr. Clement Brentano has visited you ; he has told you marvellous things of the invalid and has spoken to you of her progress in the interior life. This gentleman, it is true, has been very generous toward her. He has procured her a convenient lodging where she can enjoy more quiet ; and he has, perhaps, been of great advantage to the public, furnishing many interesting details by his sagacious observations and researches but all at the price of the invalid's domestic peace ! What do I say ? At the price of her health, her life ! He is in himself good, his faith is firm, his works noble and Christian ; but His poetical genius is out of place among the simple and unlettered. The invalid knows very well that her surroundings are not what they might be, she clearly sees the miseries by which her sister is enslaved, and the sight causes her inexpressible torment ; but she is not less firmly persuaded that severity and constraint are not the means to correct and reclaim her.
关于朝圣者，韦塞纳医生致信给奥弗伯格总铎如下：
「我们亲爱的病人恳求我写信给您，解释一下兰伯特神父的信，我自己的倾向以及我对艾曼丽的感情，敦促我告诉您她目前的情况。克莱门特．布伦塔诺先生已经拜访过您；他给您讲述了这位病人奇妙的事，并向您谈起了她内心生活的进展。这位先生对她确实很慷慨。他给病人找了一个方便的住处，让病人可以享受更多的安静；也许他对公众也有很大的好处，通过他睿智的观察和研究，提供了许多有趣的细节，但这一切都是以病人的家庭的安宁为代价的！我该怎么说？以病人的健康，病人的生活为代价！布伦塔诺先生本身是善良的，他的信仰是坚定的，他的作品是高尚的，是基督徒的作品；但他的诗歌天才与朴实无华的人格格不入。病人很清楚她自己的周遭环境不是他们想象的那样，她清楚地看到她的妹妹被罪恶奴役的痛苦，这景象给她带来了无法形容的折磨；但她同样坚信，严厉和约束不是纠正和挽回她妹妹的方法。
What she cannot cure by the way of charity and peace, she is willing to endure with humility and patience. The invalid has borne with Mr. Brentano and kept silence on all occasions, with the sole intention of being useful to him and to others. She wishes to forget past annoyances, to sacrifice them to God and her neighbor ; but she dreads his return. He understands not the way of mildness, he wishes to overcome all obstacles by force. Sister Emmerich is determined not to receive him again unconditionally, not to regard all that he does as right. However, as there is a certain imposing air about him which intimidates some, and as her friends cannot always be near her, she feels unequal to the task of communicating with him directly and she seeks means for ameliorating the evil. He loves and esteems you highly and places in you unlimited confidence ; consequently, the invalid entreats you most earnestly to write to him, to represent to him the state of affairs and authorize him to return only upon certain definite conditions.''
如果她用仁爱与和平的方式无法解决的事情，她就用谦卑与忍耐的方式来承受。艾曼丽一直忍受着布伦塔诺先生，在所有场合都保持沉默，唯一的目的就是对他和其他人有帮助。艾曼丽希望忘记过去的烦恼，把它们献给天主和近人；但是她害怕布伦塔诺回来。因他不懂得温和之道，他希望用武力来克服一切障碍。艾曼丽修女决定不再无条件地接纳他，不再把他的所作所为视为正义。不过，他身上有一种威严的气势，让一些人望而生畏，而艾曼丽的朋友又不可能总是在她自己身边，艾曼丽觉得自己没有能力与他直接交流，于是艾曼丽就想办法改变这种状态，希望能往好处发展。布伦塔诺非常爱您，奥弗伯格总铎，他尊重您，对您无限的信任；因此，恳请您写信给朝圣者，向他说明情况，并授权他只有在特定的条件下才能返回。」
To this letter, Dean Overberg replied as follows :
“ It is a great satisfaction to me to hear something of our dear invalid from a pen other than that of Mr. Clement Brqntano. From his account, I should have conjectured that she was well pleased to have him by her, and perfectly satisfied with his manner of acting. On reading your account, the legal phrase, Audiatur et altera pars, recurred to my mind. He also assured me of his intention to return as soon as possible and continue his observations, which I hardly think we can prevent if Almighty God does not oppose some obstacle to his doing so, nor do I see any possibility of persuading him to take up his abode in Minister. That he may comport himself differently toward the invalid and her friends, she must herself assign some hour for his daily visit to her and, moreover, positively decline his interference in her domestic affairs.。
对于这封信，奥弗伯格总铎回复如下：「我很高兴能从布伦塔诺先生之外的其他人的书信中听到关于我们亲爱的病人的一些消息。从布伦塔诺先生的叙述中，我应该可以推测病人很高兴有布伦塔诺在她身边，并且对布伦塔诺的行为方式非常满意。在阅读您的叙述时，我的脑海中又浮现出拉丁语格言“ 兼听则明”（Audiatur et altera pars）。 布伦塔诺先生还向我保证他打算尽快返回继续他的观察，如果全能天主不反对他这样做，我想我们很难阻止他这样做，我也看不到任何说服他接受在明斯特居住的可能性。为了让布伦塔诺先生以不同的方式对待这位病人和她的朋友，艾曼丽修女必须指定一个时间让朝圣者每天去看望她，此外，还要明确拒绝朝圣者干涉她的家务事。
She must do this herself for if any suggestion to this effect came from me, it would certainly not be adopted for the following reasons : — He is persuaded or wishes to be persuaded that Sister Emmerich is very well pleased to have him near her and that she is satisfied with his proceedings ; he thinks that, at all events, it tends to her greater good. He knows that I cannot go to see her and converse with her upon these subjects ; consequently, he would undoubtedly look upon what I might say of her sentiments concerning him and his manner of acting as suggested by those around her. Now, he might very reasonably suspect that they wish to remove him from the invalid through motives of envy ', jealousy ', and the like.
艾曼丽修女必须自己做这件事，因为如果我有任何这方面的建议，我的建议肯定不会被采纳，原因如下：布伦塔诺先生相信或希望别人相信，艾曼丽修女很高兴让他在她身边，并且她对布伦塔诺先生的进展感到满意；布伦塔诺先生认为，所有的事件都对艾曼丽有更大的好处。布伦塔诺先生知道我不能去看艾曼丽，也不能与艾曼丽谈论这些话题；因此，他无疑想听听我会说什么，想从我这里打听到艾曼丽对他的看法，以及周围的人对他的行为方式可能会说的话。现在，布伦塔诺先生可能有理由怀疑，他们是出于 "羡慕"、"嫉妒 "之类的动机，才想把他从这个病人身边赶走的。
He would then imagine it his duty to espouse her cause so much the more earnestly as he saw that some desired to deprive her of the consolation his presence affords her and him of the opportunity of securing to her a greater degree of repose by his zealous efforts to keep others at a distance. The arrangement to which I have referred should, as the case demands, be made in your own and Father Limberg's presence, and, during the first days of its going into effect, you should watch closely to see if the prescribed time be observed. I foresee very plainly that in the beginning the invalid will have difficulty ; but I know no better means to adopt. I hope that if she is firm in the commencement, Brentano will by degree become less exacting.
这样，布伦塔诺先生会认为他有责任更加认真地支持艾曼丽的事业，因为他看到有些人想剥夺艾曼丽在他那里得到的慰藉，因为他通过自已的热心努力，使艾曼丽与他人保持距离，使她有机会得到更多的休息和安宁。我所提到的安排（指艾曼丽应每天允许布伦塔诺来访）应视情况需要，应该在您本人和林堡神父在场的情况下进行，并且在生效的最初几天，您应该密切注意是否遵守了规定的时间。我很清楚地预见到，一开始病人会有困难；但我不知道还有什么更好的方法可以采用。我希望，如果艾曼丽在开始时态度坚定，布伦塔诺会逐渐变得不那么苛刻。
I must, besides, beg you not to refer him to me for a decision. That would only render the case more confused and strengthen him in the persuasion that the invalid would rather see things remain as they were heretofore, and that, if she expresses herself differently, it is only through the fear of offending either party. Her own free will and choice must decide this question. Mr. Clement Brentano told me something, but only in a passing way, of the change that has taken place in her wounds. If you noted the time of this change, I beg you to send me your account in a day or so. I heard yesterday that she has begun to eat (1). Perhaps God will raise her up again. Salute her kindly from me. I presume she has received my letter."
此外，我还恳求您不要把布伦塔诺先生交给我来做决定，那只会使情况更加混乱，使他更加相信，这位病人宁愿看到事情保持原状，如果病人有不同的意见，那只是因为害怕冒犯任何一方。这个问题必须由病人自己的自由意志和选择来决定。布伦塔诺先生告诉我一些事情，这里只是顺便说一下，病人的伤口发生了变化。如果您记录了这个变化的时间，请在一天左右发送给我您的记录。昨天听说她开始进食了（1）。 或许天主会再次使她重新振作起来。替我亲切地向她致意。我想她已经收到了我的信了。」
The Pilgrim was stung to the quick by the Abbe Lambert and Dr. Wesener's letters and he complained bitterly of them to his friends (2). But when the first storm was over, he wrote an answer to the same which unfortunately has not been preserved. From the doctor's and Father Limberg's reply, however, it may easily be inferred that they were deeply touched by his humility and repentance. The doctor responded: "I have read your letter, and I thank God that I have done so ! It has moved us to tears, it has satisfied all ! Your intentions were good, you meant well; but, under the influence of your impetuous spirit, you forgot that we are only poor, weak gnats unable to follow you in your rapid flight…… Were you calm, gentle, patient, then would you be a sword, a flame in our Holy Church !”
朝圣者被兰伯特神父和韦塞纳的信深深地刺痛了，他痛苦的向他的朋友们抱怨 (2)。但是当第一场风暴结束后，朝圣者写了一封回信，可惜没有保存下来。然而，从医生和林堡神父的回信中不难推断出，他们对朝圣者的谦虚和忏悔深深地打动了。医生回复道：「我读了你的来信，感谢天主让我读了你的信！这让我们感动得热泪盈眶，让所有人都感到满意！你的意图是好的，你的本意是好的；但是，在你浮躁的性情的影响下，你忘记了，我们只是可怜的、弱小的蝼蚁，无法跟上你的快速飞翔……，如果你冷静、温柔、耐心，那么你会成为我们圣教会的一把剑，一团火焰！」
(1) This refers to Dr. Wesener's attempts to make her take some light nourishment. such as milk and water, barley soup, or sago. She tried to obey, but without success, and the doctor was forced to desist from such attempts.
(2) Clement Brentano's Gessammelte Brlefe, vol. I., p. 384 and 840.
(1) 这是指韦塞纳医生试图让艾曼丽吃一些清淡的食物，例如牛奶和水、大麦汤或西米。她试图服从，但没有成功，医生被迫停止这种尝试。
(2) 克莱门特．布伦塔诺的《收集的信件》，第一卷。 第334 和 340页。
Of Father Limberg's kind reply, the Pilgrim thus "From Father Limberg, too, I have received a very beautiful and consoling letter, singularly touching, affectionate, simple, and scriptural. A very elevated spirit, a truly sacerdotal spirit, pervades it. He rejoices at the prospect of my return. I submit, however, to Dean Overbeds decision" (1).
对于林堡神父亲切的回信，朝圣者这样写道：「我也从林堡神父那里收到一封非常美丽、令人欣慰的信，它非常感人、深情、朴实且符合圣经。信中洋溢着一种非常崇高的精神，一种真正神圣的来自司铎的精神。他为我即将归来而欢欣鼓舞。不过，我服从奥弗伯格总铎的决定（1）。」
(1) Letters of Clement Brentano, vol. I.p. 844.
(1) 克莱门特．布伦塔诺的书信，卷一， 第844页。
On arriving in Diilmen, May, 1819, Brentano received a most cordial welcome from all, and Sister Emmerich set herself to work to maintain peace on all sides. She exhausted herself in her efforts to keep Gertrude silent in presence of the stranger who seemed insupportable to her; she exacted from Dr. Wesener a renewal of his promise to treat the Pilgrim kindly ; and she spared no efforts to make the Pilgrim himself less irritable, less alive to the little weaknesses of his neighbor. One day, after a conversation with her on this subject, he wrote, as follows, in his journal : —
1819 年 5 月，布伦塔诺抵达杜尔门后，受到了所有人最热烈的欢迎，艾曼丽修女开始努力维护各方的和平。她竭尽所能，让格特鲁德在这个看来无法忍受的陌生人面前保持沉默；她要求韦塞纳医生重申他善待朝圣者的承诺；她不遗余力地让朝圣者本人不再那么易怒，不再对近人的小弱点那么在意。一天，艾曼丽就此话题与朝圣者进行了一次交谈之后，布伦塔诺在日记中写道：
“May the confessor, good and kind as he is, find in me some day a sincere friend ! This I desire with all my heart, I really mean it. I have no after-thought in this— may it be so, too, with him ! I have no concealments from him. How happy must two men be who trust and warn each other in Christ ! God grant that my earnest efforts may earn His love and blessing !"
「总有一天我会成为这位善良而仁慈的神师真诚的朋友！这是我全心全意的愿望，我是真心诚意的。我对此没有任何后顾之忧——愿神师也如此！我对神师没有任何隐瞒。在基督里彼此信任并彼此提醒的两个人该是多么幸福啊！愿天主保佑我的真诚努力能得到主的爱和祝福！」
When he communicated his good resolutions to the invalid, she could scarcely conceal her fears for their constancy. " I saw the Pilgrim,” she said, “under a flourishing, but short-lived gourd- vine — it reminded me of Jonas." He understood well the deep significance of her words, though he cared not to acknowledge it even to himself. He remarked in his notes :
当朝圣者把自己美好的愿望告诉病人时，艾曼丽几乎无法掩饰自己对他这些愿望能否实现的担忧。「我看到了朝圣者了，」她说，「在一棵茂盛但如昙花一现的葫芦藤下，这让我想起了约纳先知。」（约纳4: 7）朝圣者很清楚艾曼丽话中的深意，虽然他连自己都不愿意承认。他在笔记中写道：
［经文〈约纳4: 7〉：但第二天曙光升起时，天主安排了一个虫子咬死篦麻，篦麻便枯萎了。 ］
" Her strange anxiety troubles me. She wept, and I was distressed, for she could not tell me the cause. May God comfort her, give peace, confidence to all hearts, and to me fortitude and unbounded charity toward all my brethren ! The confessor is very good and kind. Does the gourd of Jonas withering so suddenly signify a short-lived peace !”
「艾曼丽那奇怪的焦虑困扰着我。她还哭了，我很难过，因为她无法告诉我原因。愿天主安慰她，给所有人的心带来平安和信心，并赐给我坚忍和对所有兄弟的无限的仁爱！神师非常善良。约纳的那株篦麻突然地枯蒌，难道不是意味着短暂的和平吗?」
Yes, without doubt, this vision was to be realized only too soon. The order of the priesthood is, as it were, the channel by which the gifts and graces of God's chosen ones are distributed among the faithful in accordance with His commands; now, in their ranks not one was to be found to secure the fruits of the visions granted Sister Emmerich for the good of her fellow-men. By leading the Pilgrim back to his faith, by preparing him for the duty imposed upon him in the midst of such suffering as it entailed on herself, she supplied for what was wanting in the priestly co-operation and discharged the debt their negligence contracted. Still the accomplishment of her mission was to depend wholly upon ecclesiastical authority. For the Pilgrim's return, she had to gain the consent of her chief Superior, the Vicar-General von Droste.
是的，毫无疑问，艾曼丽这个神视很快就会实现。可以说司祭的职份，是一条渠道，把天主选民的恩宠，按照天主的命令，分配给信友；现在，神职的行列中，找不到一个人能够确保艾曼丽修女为了同胞的利益而获得的神视的成果。她引导朝圣者重拾信仰，让朝圣者做好准备，在她自己遭受如此苦难的情况下履行自已的职责，她弥补了在司铎合作中所缺乏的东西，并偿还了他们因疏忽所欠下的债务。但艾曼丽使命的完成仍然完全依赖于教会的权柄。为了让朝圣者回来，艾曼丽必须征得长上副主教冯．德罗斯特的同意。是的，毫无疑问，这一愿景很快就会实现。
Her director, Dean Overberg not having come to Diilmen as soon as expected, she sent her confessor to Miinster to learn from him if it were the will of God that she should communicate her visions to the Pilgrim ; and she reminded the Abbe Lambert of the commands so often received to reduce to writing what was shown her of Our Lord's Passion. Dean Overberg could, consequently, on June 6, 1819, unhesitatingly assure her friends that the Pilgrim's employment near Sister Emmerich was in accordance with the will of God. This declaration consoled her, as we glean from the Pilgrim : —
她的导师，奥弗伯格总铎没有如期来到杜尔门，艾曼丽派她的神师林堡神父到明斯特向总铎请教，想从他那里了解天主是否让她把自己的神视告诉朝圣者；她还提醒兰伯特神父，她经常接到命令，要朝圣者把她看到的救主的受难过程写下来。因此，在 1819 年 6 月 6 日奥弗伯格总铎毫不犹豫地向艾曼丽的朋友保证，朝圣者在艾曼丽修女附近的工作符合天主的旨意。这一声明安慰了艾曼丽，正如我们从朝圣者那里了解到的那样：
" Dean Overberg has gone. The invalid is so exhausted that she can relate nothing ; still she refers with pleasure to her interview with the Dean." Now began a new duty for Sister Emmerich, that of leading the Pilgrim to comprehend that, not being a priest, he possessed neither the sacerdotal power nor authority, and that it was only by his respect and submission to those by whom it was represented, Dean Overberg and her confessor, that he would render himself worthy to receive the communication of her visions. She repeatedly and gravely made use of expressions to him which, at first, seemed strange ; as, for instance, " You are not a priest ! I sigh for Dean Overberg. He has the priestly power that you have not ! You cannot help me, you are not an ecclesiastic ! Were you a priest, you would understand me, etc. !" It was long before he seized the meaning of such words. Only two years before Sister Emmerich's death, he wrote : “Where, then, is the priest who has understood her? I am reproached in these words: ‘Were you a priest, you would understand me and that would spare me many torments' — but no one has understood her!”
「奥弗伯格总铎走了。病人已精疲力尽，无力讲述任何事；但她还是愉快地提到她和总铎的会面。」现在，艾曼丽修女开始了一项新的工作，那就是引导朝圣者明白，他不是司铎，既没有司铎的权力也沒有司铎的权柄，他只有尊重和服从代表这一神圣权威的人----奥弗伯格总铎和艾曼丽的神师林堡神父，这样他才有资格接受艾曼丽所传达的异象。艾曼丽一再严肃地对朝圣者使用一些起初看起来很奇怪的表达方式，例如，「你不是神父！我渴望奥弗伯格总铎来。他有你没有的神职权力！你帮不了我，你不是神职！如果你是神父，你就会理解我！」，等等。很久之后，朝圣者才明白这些话的含义。就在艾曼丽修女去世前两年，他写道：「那么,理解她的神父在哪里？我因这话被责备：『如果你是一名司铎，你会理解我，这会让我免于许多折磨』 ——但没有人理解艾曼丽修女！」
It was only by invincible patience that she by degrees curbed his rebellious spirit, reduced him in some measure to respect for spiritual authority, arid enabled him to fulfil his mission with a blessing to others as well as to himself. Superior to good Father Limberg in learning and experience, Brentano saw himself in a position in which he could not approach the invalid for a single word without express leave from the former, and day by day he received convincing proof that strength to communicate her visions was accorded her only by the priest's intervention. He failed not to perceive that this simple and unlettered man, whom he so vehemently accused of not understanding his spiritual daughter, possessed by virtue of his lively faith an influence over her immensely superior to his own ; he could not close his eyes to the fact that he had yet to rid himself of many faults, and acquire many virtues before arriving at a just appreciation of Sister Emmerich and his own relations with her.
艾曼丽以无比的耐心，逐渐抑制了朝圣者的反叛精神，使他在一定程度上尊重司铎超性的权柄，使他能够完成自己的使命，为自己也为他人带来祝福。布伦塔诺在学识和经验方面都优于善良的林堡神父，但他发现自己的处境是，如果没有林堡神父明确许可，他就不能接近病人，也无法从病人口中听到一句话，并且朝圣者一天天地得到令人信服的证据，证明了只有在神父的许可下，艾曼丽才有力量传达她的神视。布伦塔诺不是没有意识到，这个被他强烈指责为简单而没有学识的神父不了解他的属灵女儿，而神父凭借活泼的信德拥有对艾曼丽的影响力，远远超过他自己对艾曼丽的影响。他必须改正自己的许多缺点，养成许多美德，才能正确地欣赏艾曼丽修女以及他和修女的关系，这是他不能不承认的事实。
Sister Emmerich's prudence in aiding him to acquire this knowledge was admirable. If charged by her angel to give him an admonition, she did it only after having adroitly prepared him to receive it well ; and she generally clothed it in parables or striking comparisons which, appealing to his intellectual mind, charmed and attracted him, forced him, so to say, to accept them in spite of himself. If he expressed disgust at something wounding to his aesthetic tastes, she would say : “One may, indeed, be displeased by bad singing at Mass or an indifferent performance on the organ, whilst others are edified by the same. We ought to banish such sentiments by prayer. He who resists such a temptation in church acquires merit, gains new graces." This simplicity of faith she recalled in words such as these : " He who in his search after truth relies on his own efforts and not on the grace of God, may cling to his own opinion, but he will never dive into the truth."
艾曼丽修女在帮助布伦塔诺获得这些认知方面的谨慎态度是令人钦佩的。如果艾曼丽的天神要求她给布伦塔诺一个忠告，她也只是在巧妙地让布伦塔诺做好接受忠告的准备之后才这样做；她通常会用比喻或鲜明的对比来劝诫布伦塔诺，这些比喻和对比会吸引他的智慧，使他着迷并被吸引，迫使他不由自主地接受劝诫。如果布伦塔诺对一些有损他审美情趣的事情表示反感，艾曼丽会说：「确实，一些人可能会因为弥撒上糟糕的唱腔或管风琴上平淡无奇的演奏而感到不悦，而另一些人却会因此而受到启发。我们应该通过祈祷来消除这种情绪。在教堂里抵制这种诱惑的人，会获得美德，获得新的恩宠。」艾曼丽用这样的话来唤醒这种朴素的信仰:「那些在寻求真理时，依靠自己的努力而不是天主恩宠的人，可能会坚持自己的观点，但他永远不会深入了解真理。」
Some weeks after his arrival, she laid open her soul to him : — “Every evening I am told to make such or such a meditation. Last night I received an instruction upon myself, and a great deal was said to me about the Pilgrim. Much remains to be corrected in him. I was shown how we can render him better, more easy to deal with, and thereby more useful. As I thought over my manner of acting toward him, asking myself how I could perform his task as well as my own, and by what means we could have a larger and richer share of merits, I learned that we must be patient with each other in the sufferings that will come upon us, and that he must receive Holy Communion for my intention ; for spiritual union is thereby strengthened. 'Do what thou canst,’ was said to me, ' but, for the rest, do not mind the Pilgrim. Many will come to speak with thee.
布伦塔诺到达几周后，艾曼丽向他敞开心扉：
「每天晚上我都被护守天神告知要做这样或那样的默想。昨晚我接到了一个关于我自己的指示，护守天神对我说了很多关于朝圣者的事。他身上还有很多需要纠正的地方。我被告知如何使他变得更好，更容易相处，从而更荣神益人。当我思考我对他的态度时，我问自己如何才能完成他的任务和我自己的任务，以及如何才能拥有更多更丰富的益处，我明白了我们必须在即将到来的苦难中彼此忍耐，他必须为我的意向领圣体；因为这样才能加强灵魂上的结合。『尽你所能，』护守天神对我说，『但其余的，就不要在意朝圣者。既便是有许多人会来与你谈话。
When they present themselves, examine whether it be for their good or not…… Pray that the Pilgrim may resolve to be humble and patient, for he must overcome his wilfulness. Aim at making him more earnest. Through mistaken condescension, be not deceived by fair words. Do thou resist, be firm, that he may become resolute. Thou art too indulgent, this has always been thy fault. Do not allow thyself to be persuaded into seeing good where, in reality, there is a fault……’ My guide told me again that I should have much to suffer, that I must not be frightened, but in the name of God calmly await what is in store for me. He reprimanded me for many faults. He says that I keep silence on many points through false humility which is, in the end, hidden pride; that I ought to receive and to communicate the divine favors as I did in my childhood when I received much more than I do now ; that I ought to speak out boldly on suitable occasions, that I ought to tell my confessor whatever troubles me even if he seemed but little disposed to hear it, for in this way, I should receive his help more frequently.
当他们出现与你交谈时，检查这是否对他们有好处……，祈祷朝圣者能够下定决心谦卑忍耐，因为他必须克服自已的任性。旨在使他更加热心。通过错误更能屈尊俯就，不要被花言巧语所欺骗。你要抵抗，要坚定，使他变得刚强。你太过宽容了，这一直是你的错。不要让你自己被说服去看他好的一面，但事实上却有错……。』我的护守天神再次告诉我，我应该受很多苦，我不能害怕，但因天主之名平静地等待着我将要面对的一切。他斥责我很多过错。他说我通过虚假的谦卑在许多问题上保持沉默，最终是隐藏的骄傲；我应该接受和传达天主的恩惠，就像我童年时所做的那样，那时我所得到的比现在多得多; 我应该在合适的场合大胆说出来，我应该告诉我的神师任何困扰我的事情，即使他似乎不太愿意听到，因为这样，我才能更经常地得到神师的帮助。
He reproached me for my too great condescension to some, which causes me often to fail in prayer and my duties toward others. He says that I am very unreasonable when I complain of lying in bed unable to act. He knows I would like to wrap in my mantle, go out in the evening, and distribute alms, because of the pleasure it would give me; but that what God imposes is not agreeable to me. He says that I ought to know that I am not lying here without an object. I must act by prayer and communicate all that I receive. I shall soon have something to impart that will cost me an effort, but I must say it. A great storm is near, the clouds are lowering fearfully ; there are few who pray, the distress is great, the clergy are sinking lower and lower. I must exhort the good to pray earnestly. He told me that I must be more calm, more collected to meet approaching sufferings, else I might suddenly die. My task is not yet completed. Were I to die now through my own negligence, I should have to undergo the rest' of these sufferings in purgatory where it would be much harder for me than here."
护守天神责备我对某些人过于屈尊俯就，这导致我常常无法祈祷和履行对他人的职责。他说当我抱怨躺在床上不能行动时，我非常缺乏理智。他知道我想披上外衣，傍晚出去分发施舍品，因为这会给我带来快乐，但我对天主加于我的并不满意。他说，我应该知道，我躺在这里并不是没有目的的。我必须通过祈祷来行动，并将我从神视中得到的信息传递出去。我很快就会有一些要传达的信息，这需要我付出努力，但我必须传达出来。大风暴近在眼前，乌云低垂；祈祷的人寥寥无几，苦难深重，神职人员沉沦的越来越深。我必须劝勉善良的人们恳切祈祷。我的护守天神告诉我，我必须更加冷静，更加沉着地应对即将到来的苦难，否则我可能会突然死去。我的任务还没有完成。如果我现在因自己的疏忽而死去，我将不得不在炼狱中忍受剩下的苦难，在那里我将比在这里更艰难。」
Sometimes Sister Emmerich encouraged the Pilgrim by holding out to him the blessings she saw flowing from his labor. She related a vision in which, under the appearance of a garden, she had seen many things of his past life, his present work, and its fulfilment after her own death.
有时，艾曼丽修女会向朝圣者展示她从朝圣者的辛劳中看到的祝福，以此鼓励他。她讲述了一个神视，在花园的外观下，她看到了朝圣者过去生活的许多事情，他现在的工作，以及她自己死后朝圣者工作的成就。
“I saw,” she said, “the Pilgrim far away, sad and lonely in his room. He could interest himself in nothing, all was distasteful to him. I wanted to fly to him, to help him, but I could not.
「我看到，」艾曼丽说，「朝圣者在远处，在他的房间里悲伤而孤独。他对什么都不感兴趣，一切都让他反感。我想飞到他身边，帮助他，但我做不到。
" Then I saw a garden, a large garden divided into two parts by a hedge over which some people were looking, but who were unable to cross it. My guide took me where the vegetation was rich, beautiful, luxuriant, but all over run with weeds. I saw beans and peas, and there were blossoms and flowers in abundance, but no fruit. Many people were walking about apparently well pleased with themselves.
然后我看到了一个花园，一个被树篱分成两部分的大花园，有人从树篱上方看另一边，但无法越过树篱。护守天神带我来到植被丰富、美丽、茂盛的地方，但到处都是杂草。我看到了豆子和豌豆，还有大量的花朵和鲜花，但没有果实。许多人走来走去，显然对自己很满意。
“My guide said to me as we walked around : ' See, what it means : — beautiful flowers of rhetoric, brilliant but sterile; abundant, but producing no harvest ; plentiful, but yielding nothing!’ — ‘Ah!’ I exclaimed, ' must all the labor be lost!’— ‘No!’ was the answer, ' nothing will be lost ! It will all be turned under to make manure,’ at which I felt glad and yet sorry too.
我的护守天神边走边对我说：『瞧，这意味着什么：-- 美丽的花儿，灿烂却不结果；丰富却没有收获；看似丰收，却一无所获 --『啊！』我惊呼道，『难道所有的劳动都要付诸东流吗！』护守天神回答道:『不！什么都不会浪费！一切都将变成肥料，』我听后感到高兴，但也感到遗憾。
“The second time we went around, we found standing in the centre of the path a tent made of the branches of a stunted walnut-tree. It was covered with a cloth. The nuts on these branches were the only fruit in the whole garden. Further on we saw an apple-tree and a cherry-tree around which the bees were gathering honey. The place was desolate enough.
我们第二次绕行时，发现小路中央矗立着一顶帐篷，帐篷是用一棵矮核桃树的树枝搭成的。帐篷上盖着一块布。这些树枝上的坚果是整个花园里唯一的果实。再往前走，我们看到了一棵苹果树和一棵樱桃树，蜜蜂正在树上采蜜。这个地方很荒凉。
“My conductor said: ‘See ! Thy confessor ought to imitate the bees and gather these nuts' — but my confessor feared being stung. I thought to myself his very fear would be the cause of his suffering what he dreaded. If he would go along coolly, the bees would not harm him ; but he ran from tree to tree, he did not even see the nuts.
我的护守天神说：『看！你的神师应该效仿蜜蜂来收集这些坚果。』但我的神师害怕被蜜蜂蜇伤。我心想，正是他的恐惧才是他害怕受苦的原因。如果他冷静地走过去，蜜蜂就不会伤害他；但是他从一棵树跑到另一棵树，他甚至连坚果都没看见。
“When my guide took me the third time, the growth was still luxuriant. I was charmed at seeing the Pilgrim gathering certain strange plants in the corners of the garden which, although partially hidden by others, yielded the most fruit.
「当我的护守天神第三次带我来的时候，这里的植物仍然长得很茂盛。我看到朝圣者在花园的角落里采集了一些奇怪的植物，我被迷住了，这些植物虽然被其他植物遮挡了一部分，但却结出了最多的果实。」
“Again I went into the garden where the too luxuriant vegetation was beginning to decay, and at last it was all turned under. I saw the Pilgrim actively digging and tilling.
「我再次进入花园，那里过于繁茂的植物开始腐烂，最后全部被埋没了。我看到朝圣者正在积极地挖掘和耕作。」
“When I came again, the garden was all ploughed up and the Pilgrim was setting out plants in beds. It was a pleasing sight. At last he left the garden, and some people entered whom I knew only by sight, I knew not their names. They fell upon me in a rage and abused me terribly, inveighing against my communications to the Pilgrim, complaining that a new sect would arise from it, and asking what they were to think of me! I took it all in silence. Then they broke out against the Pilgrim who, I thought, was within hearing. I rejoiced at being able to bear it all patiently and I ceased not to exclaim : ‘Thank God ! Thank God ! I can bear it! another, perhaps, might not. ‘ — Then I went and sat down on a stone in a neighboring grove.
「当我再次来到这里的时候，花园已经全部被翻耕过了，朝圣者正在苗圃里耕种植物。这景象令人赏心悦目。最后，他离开了花园，有些人进来了，我只是见过他们，不知道他们叫什么名字。他们怒气冲冲地向我扑来，对我大加辱骂，诋毁我，认为朝圣者记录下我的神视，这样会产生一个新的教派，并问人们该怎么看我！我默默地接受了这一切。然后，他们又开始抨击朝圣者，我想朝圣者是在听证会上。我为自己能够耐心地承受这一切而高兴，不禁感叹道：『感谢天主！感谢天主！我能忍受！其他人也许不能。』然后，我走到旁边小树林的一块石头上坐下。
" And now a priest came along, an active, energetic man, about as tall as the Prior, robust and florid. He expressed surprise at my not defending myself; but after a little reflection-, he said : ‘This person endures bad treatment very coolly, and yet she is both intelligent and sensitive ! The Pilgrim's conduct is probably very different from what we imagine ; the confessor, too, is a good man who would not permit anything wrong.' As the unknown ecclesiastic continued thus speaking in favor of the Pilgrim, the brawlers began to slink away and I noticed how diligently the Pilgrim had worked and how much the plants had grown and flourished.
「现在来了一位神父，他是一位活跃、精力充沛的人，个子和总绎差不多高，体格健壮、面色红润。他对我没有为自己辩护表示惊讶；但稍作思考后，他说：『这个人非常冷静地忍受着恶劣的待遇，但她既聪明又敏感！朝圣者的行为可能与我们想象的大相径庭；神师也是个好人，他不会允许任何错误的事情发生。』当这位不知名的神职人员继续这样支持朝圣者时，争吵者开始溜走了，我注意到朝圣者是多么勤奋地工作，植物生长得多么茂盛。
" My guide said : ' Make good use of this heavenly instruction. Thou shalt, in truth, endure these injuries and outrages. Be prepared ! For awhile thou shalt live at peace with the Pilgrim ; but lose not time, squander not the graces given thee, for thy end will soon come. What the Pilgrim gathers he will bear far away, for here there is no desire to have it. But it will produce fruit where he goes, and that same fruit will one day return and make itself felt even here.' "
「我的护守天神说：『好好利用这个天上的指示。你应在真理中忍受这些伤害和愤怒。做好准备！你将与朝圣者和平相处一段时间；但不要浪费时间，不要浪费给予你的恩宠，因为你的结局很快就会到来。朝圣者收集的东西会被他带到很远的地方，因为在这里没有人想要它。但它会在他所到之处结出果实，而那果实终有一天会回来，甚至在这里也会让人品尝到它的滋味。』」
The Pilgrim understood the foregoing vision only little by little, as his oft-repeated complaints that the time of peace would never dawn, prove. He thought the words meant freedom from exterior annoyances, whereas they really signified peace of mind, which alone could fit him to receive the visions of Our Divine Redeemer's Life. Over a year elapsed before, upon the admonition of her angel, Sister Emmerich began the narration, July, 1820. The Pilgrim had, it is true, planted diligently, but many weeds yet remained to be rooted out. His rich, lively imagination was as yet too undisciplined for the reproduction of Sister Emmerich's visions in their native simplicity, and it cost him a struggle not to embellish them with his own poetical ideas. The interpretations he gave them were infallible in his eyes, and he hesitated not to introduce them freely without specifying their origin. This happened principally during the first year when Sister Emmerich's labors for the Church formed the greater part of her communications.
朝圣者只是一点一点地理解了上述神视，正如他一再抱怨和平的时刻永远不会到来一样。他以为这些话的意思是摆脱外在的烦恼，而这些话的真正含义是心灵的安宁，只有心灵的安宁才适合他去接受我们神圣救世主一生的神视。一年过去了，在护守天神的劝告下，艾曼丽修女于 1820 年 7 月开始叙述。诚然，朝圣者已经勤奋地耕耘了，但仍有许多杂草没有被铲除。他丰富、活泼的想象力，无法将艾曼丽修女的神视原汁原味地再现出来。在他看来，他对这些神视的解释是无可挑剔的，因此他不愿随意地介绍这些神视，而不具体说明他们的来源。这部分的叙述主要发生在艾曼丽修女为教会工作的第一年，构成了艾曼丽叙述的主要内容。
He had repeatedly been told that the invalid had asked Almighty God as a special favor not to be informed for what individuals among the clergy she was called upon to pray and suffer; yet it was not without difficulty that Brentano could be dissuaded from introducing the names of persons to whom he fancied certain visions particularly applicable, instead of the terms Sister Emmerich herself used ; such as spouse, affianced, pastor, etc. Later on he erased many of these early notes from his manuscripts, when he recognized the incommensurable distance between the highest flights of his own fancy and the pure light in which this favored soul dwelt ; and then it was that he began to esteem no trouble too great to reproduce as conscientiously as possible whatever was transmitted to him for the good of the faithful.
朝圣者曾多次被告知，艾曼丽修女曾请求全能天主给她一个特别的恩惠，不要让朝圣者知道她是为神职人员中的哪些人祈祷和受苦的；然而，布伦塔诺好不容易才被说服，不再介绍他认为某些神视特别适合的人的具体名字，而是按照艾曼丽修女使用的称谓：比如配偶、亲戚、神父等。后来朝圣者从手稿中删除了许多早期的注释，因为他意识到自己幻想的最高境界与这个受宠的灵魂所居住的纯净光明之间有着不可估量的距离；也正是从那时起，他开始不嫌麻烦，为了信友们的利益，尽可能认真地复制传达给他的一切内容。
When we cast a glance at this man of genius, this poet so admired, the light of the cultivated and intellectual circle in which he moved, we are forced to admit how slight are the claims to superiority of all such natural qualities. The atmosphere which he breathes by the suffering couch of this poor peasant-girl is far purer, far more elevated than any he had yet known; her detachment, her patient sufferings, her voluntary mortifications rendered her inaccessible to any influence of an inferior order and ever more susceptible of the sacred light of prophecy. The Pilgrim could, indeed, annoy and afflict her, but to her interior, to her visions he had no access.
当我们把目光投向这位天才人物，这位受人敬仰的诗人，以及他所处的有教养的知识分子圈子里的外表的光芒时，我们不得不承认，所有这些自然品质的优越性是多么微不足道。他在这个可怜的农家女孩受苦的床榻呼吸到的空气，比他所知道的任何地方的空气都要纯净、高尚得多。 这位病人的超然，她的忍耐，她自愿的补赎，使她无法受到任何下界层次的影响，而且更容易理解预言的神圣启示。朝圣者的确可以惹恼她、使她痛苦，但朝圣者无法进入她的内心和她的神视异象。
Nothing could be more absurd than the supposition that his energetic nature had established between the invalid and himself a kind of magnetic communication owing to which he received from her only what he had himself previously dictated. This conjecture loses weight at once when we recall the fact that only one clothed with the priestly dignity could exercise any spiritual influence over her. She endured his presence as she would that of a poor, sick person sent her by Divine Providence to heal and save. He is the debtor, he is the favored one, he is the pupil; she is the dispenser of gifts, she is the teacher, or, in other words, the instrument under God to snatch one of the most brilliant minds of that period from the snares of the world, to win him over to the glorification of His Most Holy Name.
没有比这样的假设更荒谬的了，那就是朝圣者精力充沛的天性在这个病人和他自己之间，建立了一种吸引力的交流，由于这种交流，他从这位病人那里得到他以前所想要的东西。当我们回想起这样一个事实，即只有身负牧者尊严的人才能对病人施加精神上的影响时，这种猜测就立刻失去了分量。艾曼丽忍受朝圣者的存在，就像忍受上主派她来医治和拯救一个可怜的病人一样。朝圣者是债务人，他是被宠爱的人，他是学生；艾曼丽是礼物的分配者，她是老师，或者换句话说，她是上主的工具，将那个时代最杰出的思想家之一，从世俗的陷阱中拯救出来，把他争取过来，让他为光荣天主的圣名而奋斗。
No one possessed a more piercing eye with regard to his neighbor's weakness and foibles than did the Pilgrim, a gift he afterward bewailed with bitter tears of repentance. He was the most pitiless, the most acrimonious observer that the invalid and her little circle ever had to endure. When his enthusiasm vanished, and the charm of novelty wore off, woe to Sister Emmerich did he discover, or fancy he discovered the least thing to arouse suspicion or distrust ! He was an inexorable judge ! Up to the time of her death, his manuscripts teemed with bitter remarks: the words, the gestures, even the steps of her confessor were noted down with tiresome prolixity and interpreted with unsparing rigor.
没有人比朝圣者对近人的弱点和缺点有更敏锐的洞察力。他是五伤艾曼丽和她的小圈子里最令人难以忍受的，也是最无情、最尖刻的观察者。当他的热情消失，当新奇的魅力消退，当他发现，或者猜想他发现了丝毫可以引起怀疑或不信任的事情时，艾曼丽修女就会感到悲痛！朝圣者就像一个无情的法官一样！直到艾曼丽去世时，他的手稿中还充斥着尖刻的评论：艾曼丽神师的言语、手势甚至脚步，都被详细地记录下来，并以毫不留情的严谨加以解释。
And yet, the only charge that could be brought against the reverend gentleman was that he made little account of the Pilgrim's notes, that he would gladly have dispensed with Sister Emmerich's visions altogether and thus been freed from the obligation of the aforesaid notes, and that he treated her communications with freezing indifference. Sister Emmerich herself met with no greater lenity at the Pilgrim's hands. Let her utter a word of consolation to the poor and afflicted who flocked to her for relief, or show the slightest sign of weariness in relating her visions, and she is instantly rebuked for unfaithfulness to her mission, for dissipating the graces she received, for injustice to himself. But soon, overcome by her angelic sweetness and forced to recognize his own unreasonable humor, he records the following words in his journal :
“She is full of goodness and patience ! Yes, she is a most admirable vessel of divine grace!”
然而，朝圣者对可敬的神师提出的唯一指控是，神师对朝圣者的笔记不屑一顾，神师很乐意完全去掉艾曼丽修女的神视，从而摆脱对上述笔记里的义务，并且神师以冷漠的态度对待艾曼丽的叙述。艾曼丽修女本人并没有得到朝圣者更大的宽容。只要艾曼丽对那些向她求助的穷人和受苦受难的人说一句安慰的话，或者在讲述她的神视时表现出丝毫的疲倦，她就会立即遭到斥责，说她不忠于自己的使命，浪费了她所得到的恩典，对朝圣者不公。但很快，朝圣者就被她天使般的甜美所征服，并被迫认识到自己不合理的幽默，于是他在日记中记录下了以下文字：「艾曼丽充满了善良和耐心！是的，她是非常令人钦佩的天主恩宠的器皿！」
